My dear friend Amanda gifted me an email series for Christmas that I’ve really been enjoying. It’s a free email subscription but very thoughtful. Sometimes there’s a playlist, a recipe, or a simple but moving suggestion.
My favorite was Day 14 which I’m just now getting around to…
Write down …
- what you wish you did
- what you loved
- what made you truly happy
- what made you deeply sad
- something new you discovered about yourself
- the things you thought were important but seem meaningless now
Starting my new job at IWF in January! Related —-> Starting a job working from home and being able to take a 20% paycut to only work 4 days a week after Q was born. This kind of job flexibility post-baby is what I’ve prayed for my entire adult life!
Having a successful home birth. 5 or 10 years ago I would have said you were crazy that I could have had an unmedicated birth let alone a home birth, but it was a truly amazing thing. I have so much more confidence in myself and my body and the gracious Lord who created me capable of delivering a healthy, ten pound Quincy!
Buying our first home.
Wow 2013 really was a banner year. I feel so so blessed. 2014 has its work cut out for it.
Not sure if this applies technically but I do feel as though I fail my mother on nearly a daily basis. She’s been sick for 11 years now and only this summer did I step up to the plate and fully take responsibility for the fact that she needed me there in person emotionally and to help advocate for her treatment. Even though we moved her here to Virginia, my short temper with her is something I struggle with daily. I don’t feel worthy for this task.
Weaning Quincy at 5 months when I had wanted to nurse for a year. That’s a long story and I’m still unpacking the guilt and struggle I went through.
What I wish I did
Not sure I have any regrets this year - we definitely lived life to the fullest!
What I loved
So SO SO much to love this year! My heart is bursting thinking about it. From all the new ways I’ve fallen in love with John over and over again through this emotionally tumultuous year to our wonderful son Quincy. I love seeing Quincy and my mother interact and am so glad she is close by for that to happen a couple times a week. I love our house and oddly enough the land it sits upon. I was standing in the backyard when John and I first visited the house and I said “I love this land.” So strange since I’m usually the person obsessed with the house, but I love how the house sits on the highest bit of land on our property and that there’s a pond, and three distinct pastures and a bit of woods I’ve yet to explore! And finally I love all the mamas who gave me support in those early challenging weeks of new mamahood. I couldn’t have gotten through it without you.
What made me deeply sad
Seeing my mom really struggle this year. And finding out my Grandmother Lee has ovarian cancer.
Something new I discovered about myself
I CAN enjoy being a homebody and am learning to love being a creature of habit. Infants aren’t the only ones who can be soothed by routine!
Charlottesville! Trinity Presbyterian Church! Lots of new people down here who I hope turn into friends.
DC - kinda…I still go up so much I don’t feel like its goodbye! We do miss Alexandria Presbyterian Church despite loving our new church and we really miss our small Covenant Fellowship Group.
Oh and goodbye late nights and lazy days ever since Quincy!